[2024/9/13 @ 6:40pm] ♡ song: motteke! sailor fuku

it's friday the 13th today! coincidentally, it's also my friend's birthday! i wonder how she feels about that coincidence...?

anyways... lately i've been watching lucky star! it's been really relaxing... i'm having a hard time deciding who my favourite character is, though... i really love konata and akira, but tsukasa
and kagami are really fun, too. i really love minami and yutaka as well, they're a really entertaining pair. regardless, i enjoyed the series so much that i even ended up picking it up on blu-ray!
once it arrives, i'll definitely post a photo... i love blu-rays and dvds... the designs on them are just so fun sometimes. some personal favourites of mine are the madoka magica dvd and the
serial experiments lain dvd! this will actually be my first time getting an anime series on blu-ray instead of dvd, so that's pretty exciting too. the collection expands...! :)

now, it's been a while since i updated my blog, so i'm kind of having a hard time thinking what to write... ヾ(`ヘ´)ﾉﾞ

you know how sometimes, when your mental health takes a sudden turn for the worse, everything you love just kind of turns into a drag...? that's basically how i felt about this website for a
while... that is, of course it isn't, but when you're in a certain state of mind, i guess it almost feels like you shouldn't enjoy anything. i'm sure many people can relate to that feeling.
still, i'm trying to view it as i'm fighting for the things i love. otherwise i just get more depressed... i don't like that feeling, but it's a difficult hole to dig yourself out of.
i won't get into too much detail of course, but i suppose there was a time that, more than anything, i was truly afraid of enjoying myself doing anything... like doing something i enjoy would
somehow mean something awful would certainly happen to balance it out. it was a strange feeling, and it's difficult to explain, but i spent many long nights awake in fear.

now, after four or so months of torture, i'm feeling better sometimes. this blog entry is proof, even! so for that, i'm happy.
still, even just writing that i'm happy... it feels like i'm inviting misfortune...! what a cruel world! orz
and yet, i will continue writing, because it's something i enjoy...
it's an endless cycle, isn't it? (￣ ￣|||)

oh, also... i learned how to use gifs finally! the two below are from lucky star! ☆